back and forth

it's been amazing how difficult it has been for me to post upon this blog (vs. my other http://www.warringcounselor.blogspot.com/). i've found that i write the most in my worst moments, rather than when i'm dreaming, hoping, praising, rejoicing...

i want for that to change.

but like any change, i don't quite know how to do it. but i'm not stopping. i refuse to stop. i'll keep fighting, even when i feel like i'm fighting alone. cause the reward is too great...my wife...my children...someday i hope, a renewed relationship with God...

so where to begin? (begin, again that is...)

where to begin...